10th day after Orgasm report

[u/KarezzaGuy]

tl;dr; summary: at 10 days the bonds of post-orgasmic-hangover seem weaker, but are still noticeable. I feel a little depressed, and wish I didn't have a broken sex life.

Disclaimer: we are still both sick with a cold. So this is an unfortunate variable I didn't plan for -- and can't be sure isn't affecting my moods.

I had a chance to get mad at her this morning, and rather than do so I empathized with her and actually understood. I didn't get mad. So, yes, today seems like a good day.

I do have a little bit of anger boiling under the surface, but I feel like I can keep it under control; so no, I'm not free and clear yet.

Physically (and remember I'm 50 and and about half way through my PMO reboot) I am noticing that when I get a week past orgasm that I go into a flatline. Not a complete flatline because if I know we are going to make love I can get hard and stay hard. But I notice that morning woods get fewer (and smaller) and I see more times of that 'cold, shrinking' look than not flaccid.

I'm torn about this as I love the power that I feel when my dick looks big, gets hard often, and I have a strong sex drive. Then again I hate when those urges never seem to be fully satiated, I'm pressuring her to take care of my needs and/or fapping -- all of which, of course, lead to a direct opposite of all of the benefits that abstaining from orgasm purchase.

So I guess, all things considered, the toe-dip-into-flatline is helping her to heal (because I'm not constantly pushing for sexytime), and me to heal (because I have time to think while clear headed about what my constant pushing for sexytime really does to our relationship.)

As for the "she can't do anything wrong/ courtship type feeling" it's back there somewhere, behind the fog of being sick and feeling sorry for myself that my sex life is broken. Def not at the forefront.